It's a huge relief.
It's nice to know that wherever I am, I can read my Bible, pray, and commune with the Lord.
That's kind of a huger relief.
Don't judge my adjective usage.
The beginning of this semester has been great. Greg started seminary which has been teaching me patience and joy. I love seeing my hubs love his job. That is some kind of wonderful. He has also been a huge encouragement in trying to protect me from the typical "pastor's wife" duties.
Having mono over the summer has really put a damper on my level of activities. Just getting out the door for work seemed like it took all the energy I had stored up for that day. Needless to say, I'm still fighting that and telling myself to rest.
Because of that, Greg has been very careful in the things he asks me to be a part of. For that, I am eternally grateful. I tend to be an "all in" kind of person. It's go-go-go, serve-serve-serve, which is totally ok if your body can handle that. But, at the moment, mine can't.
It's been a battle of guilt and people pleasing.
What will people think if I am not involved where I used to be? People don't know I have mono. So, they probably just think I'm slacking and don't love the Lord.
All those thoughts have to combated with truth. The Lord is teaching me to rest and serve him through different ways. Maybe the best way I can serve the Lord is by just focusing on loving my husband right now. What does God want me to learn from this? In what way is he guiding my heart towards Him? And, am I willing to let Him guide me?
I am so thankful for a hubski who is looking out for me even when I just want to do what others expect of me. He challenges me to bring the Lord into every sphere of my life-healthy or not.
And, not feeling "healthy" and "active" has been it's own thing.
That's for another time...
But, today, I am thankful for you, Greg.
Thank you for not being like me.
Thank you for teaching me different aspects of the Lord's character.
Thank you for loving me, even when I'm crazy tired.
Sorry to hear you have mono. That really stinks. It is so hard to feel as though you need to be doing things but can't (story of my last two years). It definitely leaves you feeling judged or at least like an old person lol. Hope you start feeling better soon. :)
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